On Insomnia

since we're doing this about me thing...
+ vulnerability
it's currently 2:58 am as i begin to write this. I have noticed that I have been writing a lot of prose. wow.

so i am here. tired out of mind. yet my mind spinning relentlessly and recklessly in every direction. running to avoid sleep. it's been months since I have slept at an appropriate time. I hate sleeping. I hate it. I wish I could tell you why but I don't know. another one of the reason I'm built for the doctoring life. 16 -20 hour shifts ain't got nothing on me. lol I say that now but when I get into it-it ain't gon be all that. anyways- I’m a restless being mentally. striving. searching. praying for nights where I will be able to sleep peacefully and have lots of dreams.

also y’all don’t be afraid to leave comments I don’t bite. I actually *gasp* reply to all of them and am really nice haha. just a lil fyi my friends have been cackling at the fact that I constantly reassure people that I'm nice. it's giving me very much gabbie hanna vibes and I’m not here for it.

* update it's 4:42am I’m gonna go watch some asmr and hopefully sleep. *